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"Life" Like The Weather Can be Predictable, Sometimes not So Predictable..

Days That are Calm..Days You Can Feel a Storm is on its Way..Brewing In The Distance..

Days That fill You with such Anticipation To What May come Next..I Feel That Anticipation...and I can't Wait To See at What May Come Next.............I'm Waiting..

Sometimes in our Journeys's the Path that we Take,  May Lead us Down the Wrong Road. Sometimes that Road is a Dead-End and We Must Turn Ourselves Around and Begin a New Journey..

Sometimes We Must Just have Patience,We Must Stop to Listen..I will Try To Have Patience...I will Try To Listen...To Hear what is to be Heard..

It May be a Long Road That We Travel Before We Find What it is We are Looking for..What it is That we so Desire and Long For in Life.The Aching that is With-in..

I don't Believe that it is in Just a Fairy Tale..I believe That it can be in Real Life..Seek and You will Find,Believe and It will Be..It will be Complete a Wholeness that you have never experienced before..To Find that Missing Piece of the Puzzle that Fits so well...You become Molded Together As One As Partners Should Be!!

Life it is A Journey I Choose to Continue and Can't Wait to See What Happens In the Next Chapter of My Life!!

My mood: extremely peaceful

What if you were born different month or Day?

What if you were born a different Year?

What if you were born in different country?

What if your name was different?Who would you be

What if you were raised in different family?What kind person would you be?

What if you had a different job?How would that change your life?

What if you didn't have the friends you have?Do they make you the person you are?

What if you really don't know the person you are?How do you find yourself?

What if you never find the one you were destined to be with?Would you ever feel whole?

What if you fell in Love?What if they didn't love you?

What if they lived somewhere else?Would that make a difference?

What if you were the One but I could not find you,would you find me?

What if you never find the right One?Do you think you deserve that?

What if you found someone?But they weren't the right one,do you hurt them?

What if you hurt them?Don't you deserve to be hurt?

What if Life is just to hard to be alone?Do you stay alone or break those walls down?

What if you did break those walls down?What happens if your hurt again?

What if your hurt again?Do you just Keep going?

What if you keep going?Then what?

What if you never find your soul mate?Do you settle for less?

What if you settle for less?Would that make you feel whole?

I don't believe in soul mates anymore,..I don't believe that there is just One right person for you......Would there really be a person out there just for you?...And if there were.... then you would find them,they would find you,you would find each other and be together forever,....no matter where you were,...no matter what the circumstances..no matter what the obstacles...Because it was meant to be,they are your soul mate,there is only ONE......Your soul mate,someone you would connect with,fills that void,fills that emptiness,makes you whole.....It can't be so therefore No such thing...

..............But What if??????????????

My mood: extremely crushed

Sometimes I feel so LOST in this world.Everyday that passes by I feel like I miss these wonderful opportunities that I don't allow in my life.Is it that I'm destined to feel so miserable,or that allow myself to be miserable.I sometimes blame myself for my feelings for it is no-ones fault but my own to feel this way..I want badly to find myself,to feel whole again and complete in my life.I do believe that there is a special person out there for everyone,someone that will enter your circle of life to make you feel whole.That is your soul mate,a person that see's you as you,to know you for you.You become One when you find each other,No one else can make you feel the way that special right person does.There's been a Void in my life with my past relationships,not a true connection,something missing that has not made me complete.There is a someone special that has found me and he feels like Home to me,but the situation seems impossible so this must not be Home.I believe that he is out there somewhere and hope that he finds me,because I'm Lost w/out you and I want to come home..I know your Lost w/out me.

My mood: extremely peaceful

Sometimes What We Care about The Most gets all used up and Goes away,never to return.....Sometimes we never get the chance to say goodbye or I love You...Life is so Precious . I learned this from a certain person I believe to be a Keeper."The Keeper"Suppose one morning you never woke up,let those close to you know how you truly feel.Its amazing what three little words and a smile can do..Live today to the fullest!Keep the people you love close to you and never let them forget your love towards them...I Love You!

The Lodge Men is what I call them.They are the ones that come up to camp to boat,fish and hunt.I've grown to trust a man there that has helped me out a lot since my separation.He has shown my son and I much kindness.Has been very generous and courteous.I have grown to respect him....I met his wife who has a camp to the side of me and a very sweet dear lady.

Recently he has told me that he calls me"My BB"meaning My beautiful brunette,My Beautiful Baby with a beautiful Body.And that he dreams of me often..Told me"You do not know what you do to me".I have mostly lost my trust within myself that my judgment to me be clouded.I also feel guilty,ashamed that I may have done something wrong.Because I have feeling for him too.What do I do with this?

My mood: extremely blessed         Friday 13th~UPDATE:He called last night to tell me that He Loved Me!What do I do with this,these are not just words to me,these three words mean a lot and are not taken lightly,,

The place where I am Now I call home,use to be my second home(Lake House).I would come for the summers and then out every 4 months during the winter months.I met this man that has been very kind to me and at the time I met him,he to was going through the same thing as I was.A divorce.So we seemed to hit it off as friends,venting to one another.It has been almost 3 yrs now since we met.Now This man that is truly what I call a friend has changed and wants something more of me.He is very attractive,a great friend,kind spirited,loving and a wonderful father to his children.Everything a women would love to have in Their lives.But not this Women,I ask myself why not?Why can't I feel for this man he would be perfect.......I say because this is not The Right One,if it were . ...it would be,So where it is non being,It cannot be The Right One.....I feel like I have found my Right One,but He is so far from me,So then I ask~How Can It Be The Right One?

Love is The Only Medicine For a Broken HeartAuthenticOne

I want to know what it truly feels like to live,I want to be held like I never have been held before and not to be let go of.I think of life like the  River,The sky,the wind,the rain,the fields of grass,the seasons ever-changing taking us to our Destination!Who or What will take you to your Destination?

I want to float down the river and let it take me to my destination,I want soar the sky like eagles,I want to spread my arms high up to Heaven and let the wind blow right through me,I want it to rain down on me and wash all this pain,sorrow a way.I want to run in the wild fields of grass and ride the horse bareback.."I Want to know What it Truly feels like To LIVE"

AuthenticOne